February 4

Fear is being used in the most horrific ways. Politicians use fear to control us. Fear can persuade people to do almost anything. It is a horrible way to influence fellow humans, but its also very effective. The fact that we run to the doctor the second we feel pain, stems from fear. But what it does, is limits our understanding of what we are capable as human beings. Everything is diagnosed. Feelings, suddenly have a name, and a medication to go along with them. We are never forced to rely on our humanness alone. I remember in India, there are rickshaws being operated by barefoot men. They are hooked up to a seat, in which tourists sit, and they RUN around Calcutta with no shoes on to get these Westerners where they want to be. Mankind is strong. I have seen it. I have seen that we have the ability to survive hell. I have seen people do incredible things. It makes me so sad to see my culture keep us from discovering that about ourselves. I want to be at the end of my rope. I want to struggle, I have had enough of the comforts and easy street. All of this takes away from our humanness and I want to be humanized again.